You’re not sleeping at night.
You find yourself having anxiety over little things.
You fixate on problems instead of solving them
You’re just not into the things that use to bring your joy.
I didn’t know the power, the calm and freedom of letting go I was too determined to never forget what was done to me. I replayed the things that my so called friends and family said over and over again reliving it at the oddest times. It was my punishment for not being a good person, I felt.
Letting go comes in many forms. You can let go of people who don’t know how to love you. You can let go of the memories that are hurtful. You can let go of negative thoughts about yourself. You can let go of forcing things to change. The ultimate letting go, is letting go of being right. You see? I can be wrong for my peace.
You can also acknowledge you deserve better. Why? Because you exist. It’s your human right to be treated with love and kindness and WHO CARES what you did yesterday or last year. It is your human right to respected and cared for. There is no other reason. These are the things that I changed in me.
Seems so simple now that I’m typing it out but it was the most hardest thing to do in the world. I loved my family. I’m a Cancer Zodiac sign. Home and family means everything to me. I think I’d rather have my leg chopped off than to lose the ones I grew up with. My entire family is abusive to each other and to themselves but they don’t know it. I didn’t want to be them. So, I left all of them even my mother.
My mom was one of the worse with passive aggressive behaviors, jumping to conclusions, blaming others, playing victim and controlling. It had to be done or I’d certainly be dead. I wasn’t making it in life with them in it.